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    Monday, January 3rd, 2011
    7:39 pm
    @@@@@They hustle along the chill streets in the
    @@@@@They hustle along the chill streets in the dawn, their caps pulled down to their eyes, and their old jacket collars scrounged around their necksAs if they were ashamed, they won't look at one another, and like automatons most of them line up in the alleys off Canal Street for the coffee they receive from soup kitchensRed walks through the streets for a while before he catches the bus up to West 27thThe long night is always depressing
    He looks at his feet striding alongNothing's worth a good goddam
    But back in their furnished room, Lois is cooking his breakfast on a hotplate, and the kid, Jackie, comes running up to him, shows him a new schoolbookRed feels tired and happy
    Yeah, that's nice, kid, he says, patting him on the shoulder
    When Jackie has left for school, Lois sits down to eat breakfast with himSince he has been working in the flophouse they have only their mornings togetherAt eleven she leaves for the restaurant
    The eggs dry enough for you, honey? she asks
    Outside, in the new morning, some trucks are grinding by on Tenth AvenueThe traffic has an early-morning soundJesus, this is okay, he says aloud
    You like it, huh, Red
    She fingers her glassListen, Red, I went to see a lawyer yesterday about gettin' a divorce from Mike
    Yeah?
    I can do it for a hundred dollars, a little more maybe, but should I, I mean whatthehell if nothing should come of it, maybe it'd be better not to
    I dunno, kid, he says to her
    Red, I ain't askin' you to get married, you know I ain't nagged you, but I gotta look ahead
    It's all there before himThe choice again, but it means admitting he's throughI dunno, Lois, that's the goddam tru
    Sunday, January 2nd, 2011
    7:43 pm
    @@@@@What went wrong? I was so sure that if I
    @@@@@What went wrong? I was so sure that if I could
    just have enough money, I'd be safeNow I'm rich, and I feel more
    afraid than ever before in my whole lifeBut when summer came
    there
    was no visit by Rhett, no word from himScarlett hurried home from
    the
    store every morning so she'd be there if he was on the midday train
    In the evening she wore her most becoming gown and her pearls for
    supper, in case he was coming some other wayThe long table
    stretched
    before her gleaming with silver and heavy damask starched to a shine
    It was then that she began to drink steadily-to shut out the silence
    while she listened for his footstepsShe didn't think anything of it
    when she began having sherry in the afternoon-after all, taking a glass
    or two of sherry was a ladylike thing to doAnd she hardly noticed
    when she changed from sherry to whiskey or when she first needed
    a
    drink to do the store accounts because it depressed her that business
    was falling off so or when she began leaving the food on her plate
    because alcohol satisfied her hunger better or when she began to
    take a glass of brandy as soon as she got up in the morning
    She hardly even noticed when summer became fallPansy brought
    the
    afternoon mail to the bedroom on a trayLately Scarlett had tried
    sleeping for a while after dinnerIt filled up part of the empty
    afternoon, and it gave her some rest, a relief denied to her at
    night
    "You want I should bring you a pot of coffee or something, Miss
    Scarlett?"
    "No Scarlett took the topmost letter and Aunt
    Eulalie always wrote on both sides of the thin paper, and often she
    "crossed" the letter, writing on the page then turning it to a right
    angle and writing across the previous lines
    All to say a great deal about precious littleThe unseasonably warm
    autumn she said that every year Aunt Pauline having trouble
    with her knee she'd had trouble with her knee as long as Scarlett
    could remember a visit to Sister Mary Joseph
    Scarlett made a fa
    Saturday, January 1st, 2011
    7:46 pm
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    your érudition
    “Let it come out gradually,” added Bourne“When they need it, not when you want to offer it
    “Bien!” cried Maurice“He knows what he’s talking hermes kelly bag aboutA true légionnaire!”
    “Can you fight?” asked Jason“Could you go after someone to kill him?”
    Robert Ludlum ?? THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM
    223
    “Ah killed mah feeancee and her two brothers and a cousin, all with a knife and my bare hands
    She was fuckin’ a big banker in Nashville and they were coverin’ for her chloe white because he was payin’ all
    of ’em a lot of money
    Manhunt for Crazed Killer in Nashville
    Young engineer with promising future escapes dragnet
    Bourne remembered the newspaper headlines of only weeks ago, as he stared at the face of the
    young American“Go for the Legion,” he said
    “If push comes to shove, chanel earrings logo MrFran?ois, could I use you as a reference?”
    “It wouldn’t help you, young man, it might only hurtIf you’re pressed, just tell the truthIt’s
    your credentials
    “Aussi bien! He knows the LegionThey will not take maniacs if they can help it, but they—how
    do you say it, Fran?ois?”
    “Look the other way, I thinkThey look gucci gucci the other way when there are—encore, Francois?”
    “When there are extenuating circumstances
    “See? My friend Francois also has brainsI wonder how he survived
    “By not showing them, Maurice
    A waiter wearing about the filthiest apron Jason had ever seen clapped the Belgian on the neck
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    Friday, December 31st, 2010
    7:47 pm
    @@@@@I was already liking the sound of that
    @@@@@I was already
    liking the sound of that other-life thingThen you'll appreciate this," he saidAll three of John Eastlake's last
    wills and testaments contained identical clauses
    setting up a trust fund to pay the taxesThe
    original investment company administering the
    trust has been absorbed since then - in fact the
    absorbing company has been absorbed-"
    "It's the way America does business," I saidIn any case, the fund has never
    been in danger of going broke and the taxes are
    paid like clockwork every year
    "Money talks, bullshit walks
    230
    "It's the truth He stood up, put his hands in
    the small of his back, and twisted it"Would you
    like to come up to the house and meet the boss?
    She should be arising from her nap just about now
    She has her problems, but even at eighty-five
    she's quite the babe
    This wasn't the time to tell him I thought I
    already had met her - briefly - courtesy of my
    answering machineWhen the hilarity
    subsides"Walk down tomorrow afternoon, if you
    like I held out my hand
    againHe shook it again, looking at the stump of
    my right arm as he did so
    "No prosthesis? Or do you just leave it off when
    you're not among the hoi polloi?"
    I had a story I told people about that - nervepain
    in the stump - but it was a lie, and I didn't
    want to lie to WiremanPartly because he had a
    nose attuned to the delicate smell of bullshit,
    but mostly because I just didn't want to lie to
    him
    231
    "I was measured for one while I was still in the
    hospital, of course, and I got the hard sell on it
    from just about everyone - especially my physical
    therapist and this psychologist friend of mine
    They said the quicker I learned to use it, the
    quicker I'd be able to get on with my life-"
    "Just put the whole thing behind you and go on
    dancing-"
    "Yes
    "Only sometimes putting a thing behind you isn't
    so easy to do
    "Sometimes it's not even right," Wireman said
    "That isn't it, exactly, but it's I trailed
    off and seesawed my hand in the air
    "Close enough for rock and roll?"
    "Yes," I said"Thanks for the cold drin
    Thursday, December 30th, 2010
    7:39 pm
    @@@@@You'll be perfect again “You're very
    @@@@@You'll be perfect again
    “You're very welcome
    She leaned over me with another white cylinderThe top of this one came off with a pop, and
    there was an aerosol spray nozzle underneathShe sprayed my forearm first, coating the wound
    with clear, odorless mist
    “Healing must be a fulfilling profession My voice sounded just rightInterested, but not
    unduly so“I haven't been in a Healing facility since insertionThis is very interesting She started spraying my face
    “What are you doing now?”
    She smiledI guessed that I was not the first curious soulIt will make sure
    nothing foreign stays in the woundIt kills off any of the microbes that might infect the wound
    “Clean,” I repeated to myself
    “And the Inside Clean, just in case anything has snuck into your system
    She had a different white cylinder in her hand, a thinner bottle with a pump rather than an
    aerosol topShe puffed a cloud of mist into the air above my faceThe mist
    tasted like mint
    “And this is Heal,” Knits Fire continued, twisting the cap off the next canister, revealing a
    small pouring spout“It encourages your tissues to rejoin, to grow the way they should
    She dribbled a tiny bit of the clear liquid into the wide cut on my arm, then she pushed the
    edges of the wound togetherI could feel her touch, but there was no pain
    “I'll seal this up before I move
    Wednesday, December 29th, 2010
    7:39 pm
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    "Aaah, what do ya t'ink?" Polack said"I lived with a bunch of dagoesI know more about 'em than you do
    "No, you don't," Minetta said"Listen, I wouldn't tell anybody this, 'cause you know how guys are, they'll think you're louis vuitton vernis handing them a line of crap, but you can believe me, this is the truth, honestWe were really society, nobility, back in the old countryMy father never did a day's work in his life, all he'd ever do was go huntingWe had a regular estate
    "You think I'm kidding youYou see, I don't look prada bag like an Italian, I got light-brown hair and light skinYou ought to see the rest of my family, they're all blond, I'm the black sheepThat's how you tell the aristocrats, they got light complexionsThis town we come from is named after one of my ancestors, the Duke of Minetta"What're we kelly hermes breaking our asses for, let's take it easy
    Minetta continued talking eagerly"Listen, I know you don't believe me, but you ever get to New York and look me up, I'll show you some of the family medalsMy father's always taking them out to show usMy aching back, he's got a whole boxful of omega planet ocean t
    Monday, December 27th, 2010
    7:44 pm
    @@@@@He'd felt guilty for years about the pain
    @@@@@He'd felt guilty for years about the pain he'd caused
    his mother when his escapades made his father disown him
    "Supper's served, Miz Butler," said Manigo from the doorwayRhett
    offered his mother his arm, and Scarlett felt a stab of jealousy
    Then she reminded herself that his devotion to his mother was the
    very
    thing that permitted her to stay, and she swallowed her anger
    "I'm so hungry I could eat half a cow," she said, her voice bright,
    "and Rhett's just starving, aren't you, darling?" She had the upper
    hand now; he had admitted that muchIf she lost it, she'd lose the
    whole game, she'd never get him backAs it turned out, Scarlett
    needn't have worriedRhett took command of the conversation the
    moment
    they were seatedHe recounted his search for the tea service in
    Philadelphia, transforming it into an adventure, painting deft word
    portraits of the succession of people he talked to, mimicking their
    accents and idiosyncrasies with such skill that his mother and Scarlett
    found themselves laughing until their sides ached"And after
    following that long trail to get to him," Rhett concluded with a
    theatrical gesture of dismay, "just imagine my horror when the new
    owner seemed to be too honest to sell the tea service for the twenty
    times its value I offeredFor a minute, I was afraid I'd have to
    steal it back, but fortunately he was receptive to the suggestion that
    we amuse ourselves with a friendly game of cards Eleanor Butler
    tried to look disapproving"I do hope you didn't do anything
    dishonest, Rhett," she saidBut there was laughter beneath the
    wordsI only deal from the bottom when I'm playing
    with professionalsThis miserable ex-colonel in Sherman's army was
    such an amateur I had to cheat to let him win a few hundred dollars to
    ease hispainHe was like the reverse side of an EllintonAnd his wife-my heart goes out
    to
    her Rhett's mother leaned toward Scarlett"Some of the skeletons
    in
    my side of the family," Eleanor Butler said in a mock whisperShe
    laughed again and began to reminisceThe Ellintons, Scarlett learned,
    were famous all up and down the East Coast for the family weakness:
    they would gamble on anythingThe first Ellinton to settle in
    Colonial America was part of the shipload only because he had won a
    land grant in a wager with the owner as to who could drink the most
    ale
    and remain standing"By the time he won," MrsButler said, in neat
    conclusion, "he was so drunk that he thought it made sense to go take
    a
    look at hispriz
    Sunday, December 26th, 2010
    7:47 pm
    @@@@@A telephone number where the Jackal can be
    @@@@@A telephone number where the Jackal can be reached
    “We’ve got it! And a locationOur man left an hour ago
    “For Christ’s sake, how did you get it?”
    Robert Ludlum ?? THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM
    264
    “A convoluted process I sincerely believe only your man could have negotiatedHe’s brilliantly
    imaginative, a true caméléon
    “Let’s compare,” said Conklin“What’s yours?”
    Bernardine complied, reciting the number he had written down on Bourne’s instructions
    The silence on the phone was a silent scream“They’re different,” said Alex finally, his voice
    choked“They’re different!”
    “A trap,” said the Deuxième veteran“God in heaven, it’s a trap!”
    Robert Ludlum ?? THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM
    265
    26
    Twice Bourne had passed the dark, quiet row of old stone houses on the boulevard Lefebvre in the
    concrete backwater of the fifteenth arrondissementHe then doubled back to the rue d’Alésia and
    found a sidewalk caféThe outdoor tables, their candles flickering under glass, were peopled
    mostly by gesturing, argumentative students from the nearby Sorbonne and MontparnasseIt was
    nearing ten o’clock and the aproned waiters were growing irritable; the majority of customers were
    not full of largess, either in their hearts or in their pocketsJason wanted only a strong espresso, but
    the perpetual scowl on the face of the approaching gar?on convinced him he would get mud if he
    ordered only the coffee, so he added the most expensive brandy he could recall by name
    As the waiter returned to the service bar, Jason pulled out his small notebook and ballpoint pen,
    shutting his eyes for a moment, then opening them and sketching out everything he could envision
    from the row of houses on his inner screenThere were three structures of two attached houses
    each, separated by two narrow alleywaysEach double complex was three stories high, each front
    entrance reached by climbing a steep flight of brick steps, and at either end of the row were vacant
    lots covered with rubble, the remains of demolished adjacent buildingsThe address of the Jackal’s
    buried telephone number—the address was available in the underground tunnels solely for repair
    purposes—was the final structure on the right, and it took no imagination to know he occupied the
    entire building, if not the entire row
    Carlos was the consummate self-protector, so one had to assume that his Paris command post
    would be a fortress, employing every human and electronic security device that loyalty and high
    technology could provideAnd the seemingly isolated, all but deserted, section of the outlying
    fifteenth arrondissement served his purposes far better than any crowded section of the cityFor
    that reason, Bourne had first paid a drunken tramp to walk with him during his initial foray past the
    houses, he himself limping unsteadily in the shadows beside his companion; and for his second
    appraisal, he had hired a middle-aged whore as his cover, with no limp or stagger in his gaitHe
    knew the terrain now, for all the good it did him, but it was the beginning of the endHe swore
    himself to that!
    The waiter arrived with his espresso and the cognac, and only when Jason placed a hundredfranc
    note on the table, accompanied by a wave of his hand, did the man’s hostile countenance
    move to neutral ground
    “Is there a pay phone nearby?” asked Bourne, removing an additional ten-franc not
    Saturday, December 25th, 2010
    7:47 pm
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    Her surrealist phase began; first the birds flying
    upside-down, then the animals walking on water,
    then the Smiling Horses that brought her a small
    measure of renownAnd that was when something
    changedThat was when something dark slipped in,
    using little Libbit as its channel
    She began to draw her doll, and when she did, her
    doll began to talk
    278
    By then Adriana was back from Gay Paree, and to
    begin with, Noveen mostly spoke in Adie's high and
    happy lah-de-dah replica rolex submariner voice, asking Elizabeth if she
    could hinky-dinky-parley-voo and telling her to
    ferramay her bushSometimes Noveen sang her to
    sleep while pictures of the doll's face - large
    and round and all brown except for the red lips -
    scattered Elizabeth's counterpane
    Noveen sings Frere Jacques, frere Jacques, are you
    sleepun? Are you sleepun? Dormay-voo, dormay-voo?
    Sometimes Noveen told her stories - mixed-up but
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    But then Noveen's voice changedIt stopped being
    Adie's voiceIt stopped being the voice of anyone
    Elizabeth knew, and it went right on talking even
    when Elizabeth told Noveen to ferramay her bush
    At first, maybe that voice was pleasant
    Then things changed, didn't they? Because art is
    magic, and not all magic is white
    Not even for little girls
    279
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    There was a bottle of single-malt in the living
    room liquor cabinetI wanted a shot and didn't
    take itI wanted to wait, maybe eat one of my egg
    salad sandwiches and plan out what I was going to
    say to her, and I didn't do that, either
    Sometimes the only way to do it is to do itI
    took the cordless phone out into the Florida room
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    of the sun dropping toward the horizon and
    painting its golden track across the water would
    calm me downBecause I wasn't calmMy heart was
    pounding too hard, my cheeks felt hot, my hip hurt
    like a bastard, and I suddenly realized, with real
    horror, that my wife's name had slipped my mind
    Every time I dipped for it, all I came up with was
    peligro, the Spanish word for danger
    I decided there was one thing I did need before
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    Friday, December 24th, 2010
    7:39 pm
    @@@@@“You can go anywhere you want as far as I'm
    @@@@@“You can go
    anywhere you want as far as I'm concernedJogging on the highway, if you'd like thatI'm talking about keeping you safe
    “We need her,” Jared said, his voice harder than I wanted to hear it
    “We got by fine without her before
    “Fine? Jamie would have died without herShe can get things for us that no one else can
    “She's a person, Jared, not a toolI didn't say that –”
    “'S up to Wanda, I'd say Jeb interrupted the argument just as I was about toMy hand was
    holding Ian down now, and I could feel Jared's body shifting under my head as he prepared to
    get upJeb's words froze them in place
    “You can't leave it up to her, Jeb,” Ian protested
    “Why not? Seems like she's got her own mind'S it your job to make decisions for her?”
    “I'll tell you why not,” Ian grumbled“Wanda?”
    “Yes, Ian?”
    “Do youwant to go out on raids?”
    “If I can help, of course I should go
    “That's not what I asked, Wanda
    I was quiet for a moment, trying to remember his question to see how I'd gotten it wrong
    “See, Jeb? She never takes into account her own wants–her own happiness, her ownhealth,
    evenShe'd do anything we asked her to, even if it got her killedIt's not fair to ask her things
    the way we'd ask each othere stop to think about ourselvesThe silence dragged on until I felt compelled to speak for
    myself
    “That's not true,” I said“I think about myself all the time
    Thursday, December 23rd, 2010
    7:39 pm
    @@@@@I'm a phony, Hearn says, and there are times
    @@@@@I'm a phony, Hearn says, and there are times when it goes beyond the flippancy, the easy depression, the almost gratifying self-disgustSometimes there are things which can be done about it
    He broods about this through the summer, has a fight with his father
    I'll tell you, Robert, I don't know where you picked up all this union idea guff, but if you think they ain't a bunch of gangsters, if you think my men weren't better off depending on me, when Jesus Christ I've helped them out of many a scrape, and Christmas bonuses, Why don't you stay out of this, you don't know what the hell you're talking about
    I resent that, but you never could understand what paternalism is
    Maybe I don't being as it's a big word, but it seems to me it's easy enough to bite the hand that feeds ya
    Well, you don't have to worry about that any more
    But after a further series of supplications and quarrels, he goes back to school early, gets a job washing dishes in the Georgian, and keeps it once classes have startedThere are movements toward reconciliation; Ina comes out to Boston for the first time in three years, and a grudged truce is achievedHe writes home from time to time, but he will not take any money, and junior year is a grind of selling college subscriptions and pressing and laundering contracts to freshmen, odd jobs on weekends, and waiting on tables in the house as a substitute for dishwashingHe likes none of it particularly, but there are new processes discovered, new sources of strengthHe never really debates the idea of taking money from his parents any longer
    And he feels himself growing older through the year, tougher, wonders at it and picks up no answersMaybe I have my father's stubbornnessThe closest things, the dominant patterns are usually unanswerableHe has lived in a vacuum for eighteen years, cloyed by the representative and unique longings of any youth; he has come into the shattering new world of college and spent two years absorbing, sloughing off shells, putting out feelersAnd inside himself a process, never fully understood, had taken placeA casual fight with his father that has expanded into a rebellion, apparently out of proportion, but it is the sum, he knows, of everything, even of things he has forgotten
    The old friends are still there, still appreciated, but their charm is lessenedIn the daily grind of waiting on tables, doing library work, tutoring clubmen, a certain impatience has developedWords and words, and there are other realities now, a schedule to hold to from necessityHe spends little time at the magazine, frets in some of his classes
    The number seven has a deep significance to MannHans Castorp spends seven years on the mountain, and if you will remember the first seven days are given great emphasisMost of the major characters have seven letters in their name, Castorp, Clavdia, Joachim, even Settembrini fulfills it in that the Latin root of his name stands for se
    Wednesday, December 22nd, 2010
    7:51 pm
    @@@@@They illuminated the deep portico and
    @@@@@They illuminated the deep
    portico and towering white columns of a temple-like building set back
    from the street behind a tall iron fenceA gleaming white canvas
    walkway led from the scoured white marble carriage block to the
    portico's stepsOver walkway and block a white canvas awning had
    been
    erected"Just think," she said, marvelling, "you could go from your
    carriage to the Ball in the pouring rain and not a drop of water
    would touch you"That's the idea," Rhett agreed, "but it's never been
    testedIt never rains on the night of the Saint Cecilia
    "Rhett!" Eleanor Butler was genuinely shockedScarlett smiled at
    Rhett, pleased that he could make fun of something that he took as
    seriously as this ballHe'd told her all about it, how many years and
    years it had been going on-everything in Charleston seemed to have
    been
    around for at least a hundred years-how it was completely run by
    men
    Only men could be members of the Society"Step down, Scarlett,"
    said
    Rhett, "you should feel right at home hereThis building is the
    Hibernian HallInside you'll see a plaque with the harp of Ireland
    in best gold paint
    Don't be rude," scolded his motherScarlett stepped out with her
    pugnacious chin-so like her Irish father's-held highWhat were those
    Yankee soldiers doing? Scarlett's throat contracted with momentary
    fearWere they planning to cause trouble because they'd been beaten
    by the ladies before? Then she saw the crowds behind them, eager
    faces
    bobbing from side to side in an effort to see the figures emerging from
    the carriagesWhy, the Yankees are holding people back to make a
    path
    for us! Just like servants, like the torch boys or the footmenWhy don't they just give up and go away? Nobody
    pays them any mind anyhowShe looked over the heads of the
    soldiers
    and smiled brilliantly at the staring crowds before she stepped down
    from the carriage blockIf only she could have had a new gown
    instead
    of this tired old thing
    She'd just have to make the best of itShe took three steps forward,
    then expertly cast the gown's train from across her arm to fall behind
    herIt spread out on the white walkway, untouched by dust, to sweep
    regally behind her as she promenaded into The Ball of the Season
    She
    paused in the entrance hall, waiting for the ot
    Sunday, December 19th, 2010
    7:48 pm
    @@@@@I was sure my students were suffering the
    @@@@@I was sure my
    students were suffering the difference
    “I'm sorry to interrupt, but…” The white-haired man paused, struggling to word his question
    “I'm not sure I understandThe Fire-Tasters actually…ingest the smoke from burning the
    Walking Flowers? Like food?” He tried to suppress the horror in his toneIt was not a soul's
    place to judge another soulBut I was not surprised, given his background on the Planet of the
    Flowers, at his strong reaction to the fate of a similar life-form on another world
    It was always amazing to me how some souls buried themselves in the affairs of whichever
    world they inhabited and ignored the rest of the universeBut, to be fair, perhaps Faces
    Sunward had been in hibernation when Fire World became notorious
    “Yes, they receive essential nutrients from this smokeAnd therein lies the fundamental
    dilemma and the controversy of Fire World–and the reason the planet has not been closed,
    though there has certainly been adequate time to populate it fullyThere is also a high relocation
    percentage
    “When Fire World was discovered, it was at first thought that the dominant species, the
    Fire-Tasters, were the only intelligent life-forms presentThe Fire-Tasters did not consider the
    Walking Flowers to be their equals–a cultural prejudice–so it was a while, even after the first
    wave of settling, before the souls realized they were murdering intelligent creaturesSince then,
    Fire World scientists have focused their efforts on finding a replacement for the dietary needs of
    the Fire-TastersSpiders are being transported there to help, but the planets are hundreds of
    light-years apartWhen this obstacle is overcome, as it will be soon, I'm sure, there is hope that
    the Walking Flowers might also be assimilatedIn the meantime, much of the brutality has been
    removed from the equationThe, ah, burning-alive portion, of course, and other aspects as
    well
    “How can they…” Faces Sunward trailed off, unable to finish
    Another voice completed Faces Sunward's thought“It seems like a very cruel ecosystemWhy
    was the planet not abandoned?”
    “That has been debated, naturally, RobertBut we do not abandon planets lightlyThere are
    many souls for whom Fire World is homeThey will not be uprooted against their w
    Saturday, December 18th, 2010
    7:46 pm
    @@@@@ My right arm continued to itch: a low,
    @@@@@
    My right arm continued to itch: a low, sleepy
    crawl
    "The German measles story was genius," I said"It
    will keep almost everyone awayBut almost isn't
    good enoughMary wouldn't have stayed away from
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    He considered this a moment, then said, "You think
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    925
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    96
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    97
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    170
    Mansfield Park
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    171
    Jane Austen
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